I'M SIZZLING HOT
literally.
it's hard to go from one coverage to another in this 35-degree celsius heat of metro manila. i worked at home this morning since i still had some "left-over" news to write before i went to makati for a series of events to cover. when i got out of the house, i felt the heat radiating from the concrete, burning me.
it took me an hour to get to makati and i had to walk from rustans to ayala tower one at 2 pm in the afternoon because the rustans unloading area was the nearest place commuters are allowed to get off PUVs to my destination.
and i'd like to complain to the ayalas about this scheme of separating the unloading and loading zones. freakin' impractical and so difficult.
anyway, when i got to the press con, i was already a wet puppy. i bathed in my own sweat. yuck. but couldn't do anything about it as it was soooooooo hot today. and it'll get hotter in the coming days. *luthien panting at the thought*
and i still have a month of this heat and super hectic schedule. i hope i'm still alive by that time.
WHY? WHY?
why does everybody want me to quit this job to have kids? that includes someone from the other side of the fence (SFTOSOTF), mananahi ng barong ni Other Half, strangers and anybody who would care to say it to my face...
some of my colleagues were able to have kids and family and still practice journalism. they managed and survived. why can't i? to think that my section is a "woman-friendly" section. if you compare it with the political beat, naku we're better off than them because they don't have week-ends off.
maybe PJR reports could do an issue on balancing the demands of journalism and family life.
i know SFTOSOTF means well but i didn't have the guts to tell that person i'll cross the bridge when i get there. i'm still enjoying what i'm doing and Other Half told me that we would have a child/children after two years pa. we can't afford to have only one parent working for the family, di ba? eto lang ang alam kong gawin so what can i do? i can't teach in the university since 1) my thesis is still somwhere between heaven and hell and 2) i lack experience, which is a more important issue for me.
i'll do what i'm doing until i'm the one who would give up and say i quit. mapapagod din naman ako eh.
alam ko namang mahirap magkaroon ng anak kahit ano pa ang trabaho mo. both of my parents were raising 4 kids while each of them had an 8-5 job AND still had to go to graduate and post-graduate school. tapos nagbebenta pa ng barong for extra income. mas mahirap yun but they managed.
kaya nga i'll cross the bridge when i get there.
ako pa naman eh i resent it when people see it to it that it's their business to tell other people how to run the lives that are not even theirs. mas lalo akong nagmamatigas to prove that kaya ko and tama ako and i'll do it my way so tsuppeeeeee. kahit na alam ko tama sila i'll still stick to my way. yoko ng pakelamero eh. pero sige i'll just grin and bear it basta ginawa ko yung gusto ko.
point ko? please don't pressure me as to when i should have a child and if i should quit my job.
I WISH I WERE A MAN.
