MAHIRAP MAGPALIWANAG REDUX
now that my life is somewhat altered, i can't help re-evaluating my life and my priorities. i went back and read my past articles on peyups to see if they still hold true, my beliefs i mean.
and i reread my mahirap magpaliwanag article and so far i still feel the same way. i know i'll never be happy leaving the country to live elsewhere. ngayon pa lang lang na feeling ko na hindi na ako makakauwi ng elbi madalas eh naiiyak na ako, pano pa kaya yung totally iiwanan ko ang pinas?
pero dahil sa wala pa kaming anak kaya feeling ko di namin kelangan mag-abroad.
on second thought, kung hindi naman kami mag-aanak ng marami eh siguro kaya naman. hindi ko naman hinangad na mag-aral sa ateneo ang mga lekat na yan eh. anjan naman ang UP. kung tatanggalin namin ni other half ang luho sa buhay (sa totoo lang, maluho kami compared sa paano ako lumaki), baka naman kaya.
kaya nga din kelangan pag-ibayuhin ang higher degree (thesis! oh my thesis!) para mas makakuha ng stable job na ok ang pasahod. nadadaan din yan sa raket. magaling naman ako sa raket although di ako nakakaraket ngayon.
i just don't know how long i will stay in the newspaper business. pero just thinking about leaving this makes me feel kinda -- what? heartsick? i love what i'm doing and any other job would become so boring for me. but later i would have to be practical because my present salary would not allow me to raise a kid. kahit nga boss ko nage-MBA so i think he will leave the business and pursue another career.
as i said, mahirap magpaliwanag. bahala na si batman.
