DOWN IN THE DUMPSTER
here i am again, going through the roller coaster ride that is my career. right now i would just love to lie down and wait 'til kingdom come. or until i rot and die. i'm so tired right now and my boss' displeasure at whatever should have happened but did not happen last night (yes, i was working until 11 am) is adding knots on my back.
maybe i should just quit. and get on with finishing my master's degree.
but then again, this is just (again) one rough patch in my very coloful career as a media practitioner. it's all part of the game.
maybe i'm just soooo tired.
i just had my "talk" with an undergraduate class about my job -- stuff, you know, the one that i've blogged about two weeks ago. it seems so ironic that i was sort of enticing them and at the same time discouraging them to step into the world of journalism and then a few days later i am now also questioning the wisdom in continuing this nonsense.
akala ko matapang ako. pero bakit parang nanghihinaan na ako ng loob? o pagod lang talaga ako? maybe i shouldn't take my job too seriously.
but then again i am not the kind of person who takes responsibilities lightly. ayoko kasi na makilala ako na ganun.
there are moments when i think i would be better off as a magazine writer na lang. less stressful than what i am doing right now. or there are moments when i think about applying as a lifestyle reporter na lang. less stressful din.
ewan. it's the PMS thing.
minsan nakakinggit yung kapatid ko. when she was nearing hysteria due to stress (she was handling two jobs, i don't know why because she doesn't have to), she suddenly resigned from her posts and hibernated in our province. she didn't leave my mother's house for 4 months and she would only be forced to step out of the house to buy cigarettes. she watched anime day in and day out and the highlight of the day would be cooking lunch.
i wish i have that kind of luxury.
now, my sister's back in the city and went back to her old office albeit with greater responsibility. she's now a manager kuning kuning with more stress and responsibility. hahaha.
can i just, for one week, be completely out of circulation and relax at home? please? unfortunately i can't. i'm covering for someone who's out there in europe enjoying herself immensely. *sigh*
maybe i should just quit. and get on with finishing my master's degree.
but then again, this is just (again) one rough patch in my very coloful career as a media practitioner. it's all part of the game.
maybe i'm just soooo tired.
i just had my "talk" with an undergraduate class about my job -- stuff, you know, the one that i've blogged about two weeks ago. it seems so ironic that i was sort of enticing them and at the same time discouraging them to step into the world of journalism and then a few days later i am now also questioning the wisdom in continuing this nonsense.
akala ko matapang ako. pero bakit parang nanghihinaan na ako ng loob? o pagod lang talaga ako? maybe i shouldn't take my job too seriously.
but then again i am not the kind of person who takes responsibilities lightly. ayoko kasi na makilala ako na ganun.
there are moments when i think i would be better off as a magazine writer na lang. less stressful than what i am doing right now. or there are moments when i think about applying as a lifestyle reporter na lang. less stressful din.
ewan. it's the PMS thing.
minsan nakakinggit yung kapatid ko. when she was nearing hysteria due to stress (she was handling two jobs, i don't know why because she doesn't have to), she suddenly resigned from her posts and hibernated in our province. she didn't leave my mother's house for 4 months and she would only be forced to step out of the house to buy cigarettes. she watched anime day in and day out and the highlight of the day would be cooking lunch.
i wish i have that kind of luxury.
now, my sister's back in the city and went back to her old office albeit with greater responsibility. she's now a manager kuning kuning with more stress and responsibility. hahaha.
can i just, for one week, be completely out of circulation and relax at home? please? unfortunately i can't. i'm covering for someone who's out there in europe enjoying herself immensely. *sigh*
